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For the first time in my life I am completely and utterly confused.
At times in the past I have felt lost but have always been able to find the path back home.
Now, I don’t even know where I call home.
I am back and forth from destination to destination, a nomad.
I don’t feel like I truly belong anywhere, or with anyone.
I am unclear of who I am and who I want to be,
who I truly care about or who I just want to keep around for comfort.
I have never been so baffled.
It keeps me up at night and wakes me early in the morning.
My mind feels as if it is in a race with no finish line.
All I want are answers but none are to be found.
I don’t know what I want or what is right for me, things seem to be crumbling at a pace that I cant keep up with.
I need to press pause on the remote that is my life.
Everything seems to be moving at a fast-forwarded pace and my mind is tired of running.
I need peace.
I don’t know where to find it.
It isn’t here and it is no longer at “home.”
I need a rewind button because the past needs to be reworked, it fucked up my present.
I don’t know where to go from here but I do know that I need rest.
I miss everything that used to make me feel safe, I want it back.
-me
Here’s to life, as hard as it may be, and picking yourself up when you’ve fallen down.
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| | Posted 11/8/2009 6:20 PM - 59 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
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