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If the children don't grow up,
our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.
We're just a million little gods causin' rain storms turnin' every good thing to rust.

Wake Up-The Arcade Fire

I’m not going to change the way I look or the way I feel to conform to anything.

I’ve always been a freak.

So I’ve been a freak all my life and I have to live with that, you know.

I’m one of those people.

John Lennon

and today I can't stop smiling
all the hope is making my face ache.

Here's to the kids who's idea of a good time
is sitting on the hood of their car, watching the stars.

do you feel a certain sense of synergy between yourself and me?
it had to be you- motion city soundtrack

I need you so much closer
so come on, come on

Transatlanticism- death cab

I felt the world begin
to peel off all my skin
and i felt the weight within
reveal the bigger mess
that you can't fix

Shake it out- manchester orchestra

I just know there's something dark in me and I hide it. I certainly don't talk about it, but it's there always, this Dark Passenger. And when he's driving, I feel alive, half sick with the thrill of complete wrongness. I don't fight him, I don't want to. He's all I've got. Nothing else could love me, not even... especially not me. Or is that just a lie the Dark Passenger tells me? Because lately there are these moments when I feel connected to something else... someone. It's like the mask is slipping and things... people... who never mattered before are suddenly starting to matter. It scares the hell out of me.

Dexter

And I cannot stop thinking about you
I cannot stop wondering
If you’re constantly thinking about me
Don't close your eyes dear, I'm still staring
I won't lie dear, I'm still breathing
Even though your beauty is breathtaking

Darl’n- Between The Trees

we’ll fight for your music halls
and dying cities.

Plasticites-Andrew Bird

When they come for me, I'll be sitting at my desk
With a gun in my hand, wearing a bulletproof vest singing
"My, my, my, how the time does fly, when you know you're going to die
By the end of the night." And said hey

Keasbey Nights-Streetlight Manifesto

although we adore men individually, we
agree that as a group they are rather stupid.

Mary Poppins

we cut the legs off of our pants

threw our shoes into the ocean

sit back and wave through the daylight

Daylight-Matt and Kim

Bottles of reasons have now reached the ceiling
It's hard to hide it, I'll hide behind it for now
My big mouth said too much, I'm shaking at your touch
All the bottles came crashing down to the floor

Whiskey and Wine- Matt Costa

Sweet darlin'
This is my confession to
The crimes of wanting you badly
And darling, if you're wondering
Here's your answer;
Yes, I like you.
I don't love you
I can't love you...
...yet.

Darl’n- Between the Trees

When you smile, I melt inside
I'm not worthy for a minute of your time
I really wish it was only me and you
I'm jealous of everybody in the room
Please don't look at me with those eyes
Please don't hint that you're capable of lies
I dread the thought of our very first kiss
A target that i'm probably gonna miss

First Date; Blink-182

Tell me there's a logic out there.
Leading me to better prepare
For the day that something really special might come.
Tell me there's some hope for me.
I don't wanna be lonely
For the rest of my days on the earth.

Perfect Situation-Weezer

Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there`s going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under you...

Chuck Palahniuk

I remember we were driving in your car, the speed so fast I felt like I was drunk. City lights lay out before us and your arm felt nice wrapped around my shoulder.  And I had a feeling that I belonged, and I had a feeling that I could be someone.

When I can't find the words,
you teach my heart to speak,
You make it real for me

James Morrison

All we have at the end of the game
Is a lonely road out.
All I know at the end of the day
Is a love to smile now, even if that’s fake.
All I know is I’m done acting
And I'll be happy for your life, even if I hate it all.

Hair-The Early November

These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
They've been knockin' me out, babe
Whenever you come around me.

Sideways- Citizen Cope

I dream. I dream I'm floating on the surface of my own life. Watching it unfold. Observing it. I'm the outsider looking in.

Dexter

A subtle silence
To demolish the troubled conscious
Of a compass with no knowledge
And every freedom denied
Every dream is designed and broadcasted
From the masters to the masses
From the antennas on top of the shrines
As far as the receiving planet during a panic is shorted
It reports back everything in your mind.

Streets On Fire-Lupe Fiasco

"People keep telling me that I fall in love too easily- that I should protect my heart, that I shouldn’t wear my heart on my sleeve…I fall in love at least 20 times a day. I fall in love with the sky and the sun and the flowers and my children. I fall in love with smiles, with music on the radio and with french fries and Dr. Pepper. I fall in love with the sound of laughter, blue jeans, accents… Sometimes I fall in love with complete strangers, especially the ones holding hands and kissing in public. The ones who aren’t afraid to be in love with the idea of being in love either….I don’t mind the pain of unrequited love so much, because I think they’re wrong. Love looks good on me."

Natalie Anne Erlanson

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Sometimes when
I'm lying there all alone
I think of every little nothing
That we could own
To overthrow all of you
Who have overgrown.

Turn It Again-RHCP

She'll flip through her thousands of songs until she finds one
that will perfectly describe the way she feels right now.

I think you want to be beautiful in someone's eyes, you want to be seen. Like if I shot off fireworks and no one was there to watch them, and I closed my eyes, they become beautiful in being seen. Maybe you're not supposed to be beautiful to be seen, you just have to be seen as beautiful, by someone, by one person.

there's nothing like hearing that girl cry on the receiver
and your stomach hurts so bad 'cause you think you need her
so you down that cough syrup
you love feeling so screwed up
and you crawl up those steps and read yourself to sleep
yeah, you crawl up those steps and sing yourself to peace.

"You have four years to be irresponsible here. Relax.Work is for people with jobs. You’ll never remember class time, but you'll remember time you wasted hanging with your friends. So, stay out late. Go out on a Tuesday
when you have a paper due Wednesday. Spend Money you don't have. Drink 'til sunrise. The work never ends,
but high school does."-Tom Petty.

it was almost night time so we stayed inside and closed our eyes
I whispered a thought that I had
we slept while holding hands
couldn't sleep, "the cold", you said
"just being near you for awhile is enough"
I thought you have the most wonderful sense of feeling right
and the most wonderful sense of being here tonight.

1:19- Saves The Day

And one day we will die
And our ashes will fly from the aeroplane over the sea
But for now we are young
Let us lay in the sun
And count every beautiful thing we can see
Love to be
In the arms of all I'm keeping here with me.

In The Aeroplane Over the Sea- Neutral Milk Hotel

"Music doesn't lie.
If there is something
 to be changed
in this world,
then it can only
happen through music."
-Jimi Hendrix.

Most of our lives are a series of images,
They pass us by like towns on a highway.
But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens
And we know that this instant is more
than a fleeting image.
We know that this moment, every part of it,
Will live on forever.

I like too many things
and get all confused
and hung-up running
from one falling star
to another till I drop.
This is the night,
what it does to you.
I had nothing to offer
anybody except
my own confusion.

Right on the verge just one more dose
I'm traveling from coast to coast
My theory isn't perfect but it's close
I'm almost there why should I care
My heart is hurting when I share
Someone open up and let it show.

Wet Sand- RHCP

Hardwood floor carry sounds
carry slow to my ears
it's the words I can't recognize
but I'm trying hard to hear
cause my eyes can't find the things
that they're looking for down here
and brown leaves are covering
another wasted day this year.
The lights strung out across the yard
remind me of a time when I tried
to be a light, ya know, god I try to shine.
But the cross seems so high tonight
and glory I can't find.
Oh could you tilt in so you're leaning down
or would you pull me back inside...

Tilt-Wild Sweet Orange

But hey hey, I've got things to say
I've lost control of life
I don’t know how many times I’ve tried
To undo the knot you've tied
My face is red, and people change
I’ve changed for good this time.

Carry On-Bayside

i've been to both hemispheres over my short years
I still can't pick my favorite place
the contour of your lips
they match the continents
and I still love the way you taste.

Time-Cute Is What We Aim For

You can walk for what seems like days and the trees all start to take face,
hold as you're running in place,
and then they all start to scream, "This is the land of no returning!"
Oh, when will you start believing that there are monsters beneath your bed?
And those voices of self-destruction could never begin in your head.
Oh and love is no illusion sometimes I can see it in your eyes.
And hear it moan and tumble down the hill when the traffic dies
So when you go, tell me where are you going.
'Cause there's no place you can run to, forget all your longing.
So forget where you're going.

Land Of No Return-Wild Sweet Orange

It's true: Everyone needs a reason to stay alive -- someone who justifies your existence. Someone who loves you. Not beyond all reason. Just loves you. Even just shows an interest. Even someone who doesn't exist, or isn't yours. No, no! They don't even have to love you! They just have to be there to love! Target for your arrows. Magnetic Pole to drag on your compass needle and stop it spinning and tell you where you're heading and...Someone to soak up all the yearning. That's what I think.

I just want to sit with you.
We could talk  or,
we could just sit.
You could hold my hand
or maybe make me laugh.
But, just being
it seems so endless that
it’s enough when it comes to you.

And yet, I found I could survive. I was alert, I felt the pain - the aching loss that radiated out from my chest, sending wracking waves of hurt through my limbs and head - but it was manageable. I could live through t. It didn't feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I'd grown strong enough to bear it.

Sometimes all I really want to feel is love
Sometimes I'm angry that I feel so angry
Sometimes my feelings get in the way
Of what I really feel I needed to say

Edit The Sad Parts-Modest Mouse

life’s too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don’t, and believe that everything happens for a reason. if you get a chance, take it. if it changes your life, let it. nobody said it would be easy; they just promised it would be worth it.

We'll never be younger
than we are tonight.

All I want is for you to be happy and
Take this woman and make you my family and
Finally you have found someone perfect and
Finally you have found... yourself.

Hard To Concentrate-RHCP

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Don't nobody know what I'm talking about. I've got my own life to live. I'm the one that's gonna die when it's time for me to die, so let me live my life the way I want to.
-"If 6 was 9" by Jimi Hendrix.

i want to live in the center of a circle
i want to live on the side of a square
id love to walk to where we can both talk but
ive got to leave you cause my ride is here

Home Life-John Mayer

My oh my, how my blood boils, it's sweet taste for you,
Strips me down bare
And gets me into my favourite mood.

Crazy For You-Adele

Dr. Meredith Grey: Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.

Dr. Meredith Grey: You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

Brian Johnson: Dear Mr. Vernon, we accept the fact that we had to sacrifice a whole Saturday in detention for whatever it was we did wrong. But we think you're crazy to make an essay telling you who we think we are. You see us as you want to see us... In the simplest terms, in the most convenient definitions. But what we found out is that each one of us is a brain...
Andrew Clark: ...and an athlete...
Allison Reynolds: ...and a basket case...
Claire Standish: ...a princess...
John Bender: ...and a criminal...
Brian Johnson: Does that answer your question?... Sincerely yours, the Breakfast Club.

I never cared how i dressed before
But i cared that night
Anticipation ran through my bones
And my clothes never fit right
I can't wait 'til we meet again.

I Don’t Wanna Know-New Found Glory

Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.

Hate Me-Blue October

And the smile across my face is being forged
It's nothing but a fake and it helps me to not think
And I know that you're at home and on your mind
is nothing about my brown hair and hazel eyes.
I'm just trying to pass the time
And the tears all sing aloud, without making a sound
‘You're a sucker, such a sucker.’
It seems as if you want what you can't get
And I'm nauseous and I'm sick
And I'll get into your mind so please get out of mine.

I Am A Book, Torn-Manchester Orchestra

you can't rely on someone else to make you feel alive.

and you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
the present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all this hope
You had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
and it did because of me.

Konstantine-Something Corporate

And I know it may be hard to get through,
but baby go where you heart tells you to.

But hey hey, I've got things to say
I've lost control of life
I don’t know how many times I’ve tried
To undo the knot you've tied
My face is red, and people change
I’ve changed for good this time

Carry On-Bayside

When I woke up, my body was dying all over the floor.
I felt apathy and hate infested in my bones.
Wake up, you've got a lot of things to do;
wake up, the sun is rising without you.

Quiet As A Mouse-Margot and The Nuclear So and So’s

I mean that you can give me life, or take it away from me.
You are my complete happiness and my misery.

We are in each others arms
just like a movie scene
And as we're leaning in
the light decides to turn green
Me and you together
this is getting better
just butterflies won't do
I don't want just red lights
I want more of these nights
baby I love you.

White Lines and Red Lights- Between The Trees

It's a funny thing about coming home...
looks the same, smells the same, feels the same.
 You'll realize that what's changed is you.

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Pacing floors and opening doors,
Hoping you'll walk through
And save me boy,
Because I'm too crazy for you.
Crazy for you.

Crazy For You-Adele

Dr. Meredith Grey: Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes to simply be human. Maybe, we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.

Sometimes it's easier to feel like you're the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated or unsatisfied or barely getting by, but the feeling is alive and if you just hold on. Just find the courage to face it all for another day. Someone or something will find you and make it all okay, because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in our world, to remind us that it won't always be this way, that someone is out there and that someone will find you.

Practicing medicine doesn't lend itself to the making of friends. Maybe because life and mortality are in our faces all the time. Maybe because in staring down death everyday, we're forced to know that life, every minute is borrowed time. And each person, we let ourselves care about is just one more loss somewhere down the line. For this reason, I know some doctors who just don't bother making friends at all. But the rest of us, we make it our job to move that line. To push each loss as far away as we can.

Grey’s Anatomy

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The most important thing in art is the frame. For painting: literally; for other arts: figuratively - because, without this humble appliance, you can't know where The Art stops and The Real World begins. You have to put a "box" around it because otherwise, what is that shit on the wall?
Frank Zappa

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.

But in the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not and who I wanna to be
No way to know how long she will be next to me

^{The Fray- You Found Me}

and i, oh i just can't find a reason why
why you intentionally say goodbye
if this mess were up to me, we'd see eye-to-eye
but you get bored and run from the honest life
sometimes it's where you're making me lose my mind

The Sounds-The Morning Light

I live my life in the shadows of the things I try to hide.

The Only Medicine- Scary Kids Scaring Kids

It seems like the chaos of this world is accelerating, but so is the beauty in the consciousness of more and more people.
Anthony Kiedis

Sometimes life's so much cooler when you just don't know any better and all the painful lessons have not hammered your head open yet.
Anthony Kiedis

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

Famous Last Words-My Chemical Romance

But I will say that if you're alive, you got to flap your arms and legs, you got to jump around a lot, you got to make a lot of noise, because life is the very opposite of death and therefore, as I see it, if you're quiet, you're not living.
You've got to be noisy or at least your thoughts should be noisy and colorful and lively.

Mel Brooks

You're desperate in finding something else to please you. You've been searching your whole life. Something to mute, change, or just distract you. Something to put inside you to give the illusion of life.

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Famous Last Words-My Chemical Romance

They're not that different from you, are they? Same haircuts. Full of hormones, just like you. Invincible, just like you feel. The world is their oyster. They believe they're destined for great things, just like many of you, their eyes are full of hope, just like you. Did they wait until it was too late to make from their lives even one iota of what they were capable? Because, you see gentlemen, these boys are now fertilizing daffodils. But if you listen real close, you can hear them whisper their legacy to you. Go on, lean in. Listen, you hear it? - - Carpe - - hear it? - - Carpe, carpe diem, seize the day boys. Make your lives extraordinary.

Dead Poet’s Society

“Don't gain the world and lose your soul, wisdom is better than silver or gold...”

Bob Marley

If you got it all figured out
Then what is there to shout about
This Midwest town is gonna miss you.

BigCityDreams-NeverShoutNever!

You might think I'm incapable
Of loving a soul like yours
You might think I'm a fool
For you

ShesGotStyle-NeverShoutNever!

You are everything I wanted
The scars of all I’ll ever know

If I told you you were right
Would you take my hand tonight?
If I told you the reasons why
Would you leave your life and ride?

Ride-Cary Brothers

We're damned after all.
Through fortune and flame we fall.
And if you can stay then I'll show you the way,
To return from the ashes you call.

Mama-My Chemical Romance

I want so badly to believe that
there is truth, that love is real.
And I want life in every word, to the extent
that it's absurd.
I know you're wise beyond your years, but
do you ever get the feeling
that your perfect verse is just a lie
you tell yourself to help you get by?

Clark Gable- The Postal Service

Mondays I sleep away
Tuesdays I lay awake
Wednesdays are the worst
Thursdays I reminisce
Fridays I see your face
And I can breathe.

Dare4Distance-NeverShoutNever!

So if I asked you about art, you'd probably give me the skinny... on every art book ever written. Michelangelo? You know a lot about him. Life's work, political aspirations. Him and the pope. Sexual orientation. The whole works, right? I bet you can't tell me what it smells like in the Sistine Chapel. You never actually stood there and looked up at that beautiful ceiling. Seeing that. If I ask you about women, you'll probably give me a syllabus of your personal favorites. You may have even been laid a few times. But you can't tell me what it feels like to wake up next to a woman... and feel truly happy. You're a tough kid. I ask you about war, you'd probably ah throw Shakespeare at me, right? "Once more into the breach, dear friends." But you've never been near one. You've never held your best friend's head in your lap... and watched him gasp his last breath lookin' to you for help. If I asked you about love, you'd probably quote me a sonnet, but you've never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable. Known someone that could level you with her eyes. Feelin' like God put an angel on Earth just for you, who could rescue you from the depths of hell. And you wouldn't know what it's like to be her angel, to have that love for her be there forever. Through anything. Through cancer. And you wouldn't know about sleepin' sittin' up in a hospital room... for two months, holding her hand, because the doctors could see in your eyes... that the terms "visiting hours" don't apply to you. You don't know about real loss, 'cause that only occurs when you love something more than you love yourself. I doubt you've ever dared to love anybody that much. I look at you. I don't see an intelligent, confident man. I see a cocky, scared shitless kid. But you're a genius, Will. No one denies that. No one could possibly understand the depths of you. But you presume to know everything about me because you saw a painting of mine. You ripped my fuckin' life apart. You're an orphan, right? Do you think that I'd know the first thing about how hard your life has been - how you feel, who you are - because I read Oliver Twist? Does that encapsulate you? Personally, I don't give a shit about all that, because - You know what? I can't learn anything from you... I can't read in some fuckin' book. Unless you wanna talk about you, who you are. And I'm fascinated. I'm in. But you don't wanna do that, do you sport? You're terrified of what you might say. Your move, chief.

Good Will Hunting

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